Just doing my job

I have always told my girls that it is not my job to make them like me. It is my job to prepare them to be the best adults they could be. Having my oldest go away to college has been a bittersweet thing. We were just getting into a very nice place in our relationship. And she was leaving.

To say I don't deal well with change is a gross understatement. I was excited for her to start the next chapter of her life. To continue to grow into the wonderful lady I can see her becoming. To learn the things that only she can learn on her own. But on the other hand, this is my baby that has been a part of my daily life for half my life.

Her absence has knocked me off kilter a little bit. Now I am learning a new way of life. I get a flutter in my heart whenever she calls me and (thanks to the wonders of technology) I see her face on my phone. When I see in my Facebook notifications that she has posted something or replied to something, it is always the first thing I click on. Just to feel that tiny connection with her for just that tiny moment in time. It always puts a smile on my face when I pick up my phone and hear "Hey Momma!".

But on the other side I am learning more about Amelia and Jaime as well. And I am really falling in love with my children all over again. All 3 of them.

How Long Has It Been???

Umm...Yeah hi. I am a little ashamed that it has been 3 years since I last posted. I was Googling something today for my daughter and thought that I should put what I was looking for here so she could see it easier. Since she is away at college and all. So she is having a bad day today and I was looking up links to help lift her spirits a little. Here is some of them I have found so far:

How to Cheer Up.

how-to-be-an-optimist-in-10-easy-steps

101 Ways to Cheer Yourself Up

25 Instant Mood Lifters

So wanna know what is going on in my head?? You asked for it....

Do I really want to make Loaded Baked Potato Soup for dinner or is it that I really don't want to go to the grocery store to get the ingredients?

This pimple in my ear lobe really hurts.

Must remember to put money in Paige's account so she can get gas to get home on Friday.

I wonder if Jaime took a shower last night...shoot! I need to get her new shoes tomorrow.

When is my (*YGHVUI()^$BNM& Hockey going to start?!

All that is pretty much what went through my head in about a 2 minute span.

So hopefully now that I have this page saved on my new(er) laptop I won't forget about it again. I think having 1 child start college, 1 child start high school and 1 child in her last year of elementary school might make for an interesting year.